April is c-section awareness month. To all the hard as nails mothers who have endured this. You’re still as much of a mother as the next woman. Major surgery is by no means the ” easy way”. To those recovering and those about to enter into motherhood. Just thought I would share these with you.

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Break down

So first time in 19 weeks i felt i couldn’t cope!! We came back from a relaxing weekend in wales were i didnt have to make sure the house was spotless and didnt have to do the things i would do if i was at home! Monday morning i woke up feeling sluggishcand just no motivation normally i wake up and already bouncing of the walls and getting all chores done…not today i felt sad and tearful, i felt numb and like i just wanted to stare into space, i felt like i didnt care that things needed doing…i was so snappy towards ant and being so spitful…what the hell was up with me i spent 3 days crying and being down and depressed i felt like i had burnt out i had no energy to carry on how i had been…maybe i was doing to much and a break away made me lose my routine…i felt like i just couldnt cope 😦 this wasn’t like me at all. But by Thursday i managed to gain a bit of control and to slowly carry on and get back into a routine….i also think because Marley said to me i dont like seeing you sad…so another reason to carry on and do what needed to be done… Am back on the routine and coping… Some days i have 3 children cry at me…but when all 3 of them smile at me makes my time as a mummy worth while 

No one said it would be easy being a mummy                  BUt no one said it would be hard.                                       We should appricate what we have and never take it for granted..we lead one life make it count and cherish them pressure’s moments that we will never get back again love xxxxx

Finding out about being pregnant

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My name is samantha and this is my blog about twins from week to week, the dirty nappes, sick in the hair, the ups and the downs, this is my journey with my twins elle and Mikey!!

On the 09 th July 2013 i found out i was pregnant, it was a big shock to me and Anthony as only Anthony was working as i looked after our 2 year old as child care was just to expensive! So after long chat and thinking things through we decided that we can bring another baby into our family, we told our familys on 13th July my birthday everyone was so happy for us, but was still sinking in for us,

On a Friday we was getting ready to go to midewife and then get ready to go away for the weekend, midewife said that am about 5 weeks along done wee test and blood test and off we went.Got home and finished packing, i ran to the toilet and noticed quite a bit of blood i panicked, it drawned on me i do want this baby i don’t want to lose it now..why is this happening to me, i went straight back to my midewife who had gone home they put me through to see a gp,

That moment of sitting in the waiting room, 1000 things running through your head, the call of your name echo’s through the hall way, went in to see the doctor told her how i was feeling, what was happening to me…she told me because am 5 weeks not much they can do and she would book. Me a scan appointment for Monday!!! A whole weekend of not knowing if am pregnant or not was so hard,  how can i. Enjoy my weekend away not knowing what was happening to me!!

Monday came i had an appointment for 12 for a scan, i felt so nervous, so tired from not sleeping, sat waiting to go in for my scan i looked to Anthony and said “what will be will be” then our name was called out! 

That moment of walking into scan room. And sitting on the bed the dim room were your thoughts were all over the place, the moment your asked to lift your top up, feeling of the cold gel placed on your belly, that. Moment of can i take what she is about to. Tell me!!! 

What the midewife told me i was never prepared for!!!ever!!! 

She looked to me and said this isnt the first time this has happened today.. I looked to Anthony so worried, she has such a gental carering smile and looked at me and said its double troubl..your having twins!!!!  And i was 9 weeks gone!!!! I cried i didnt know how to feel this was the biggest shock i have ever had!!! I was glad baby that had been babies were ok, Anthony sat there laughing nervously,  we left that room and must of said “oh my God” 1000 times!!!